This is my world.-Charis

i’m disappointed. God knows how much i studied. God knows how much i sacrificed. God knows how much i wanted to win. but then again, i might have had the wrong motive to win, being an accompishment-driven person (i got this from my human behavior in organizations text book).

i feel bad. we were prepared. we had the evidences, and yet we didn’t win. it was ALL our cup of tea, it was all our expertise: and yet we didn’t win. and only God knows why this happened. and only God knows when He will reveal the answers to the whys behind this loss.

it aches emotionally,almost physically. the pain burns. add to the loss the fact that this was the first contest i joined which was open to the public to view where i din’t win or receive at least one award…but i know i won’t stop here. Abraham Lincoln experienced much more loss than all the accumulated losses i accumulated in my sorry life. and i’m holding on to God’s promise that when He says no, there’s something better for me.

-what i learned-

the loss i’ve experienced would be all the more meaningless if i didn’t get anything out of it.

i’ve learned that there is no easy way to achieve the things i want to achieve.

friends who are fickle are no friends at all.

nobody might not be there when you need them to be there for you, but you can always trust in God to be constantly there. God’s comfort eases the pains, and His grace will be there to help me move on.

i appreciated my God-given talent for public speaking. i thank God for giving me an avenue to practice my communication skills even if i am taking up accountancy. ang accountancy, ang capital, utok,alam kag analytical skills. according to CPAs i know, communication skills are an added bonus, but are not the main requirement.

if i were to be given a chance to pursue a second course, i’d like to take up Philippine Law. i am dreaming to become a CPA lawyer, but to get there, i must remember that the fulfillment to my dreams is not handed to me in a golden bowl. it is achieved through sweat, tears, prayers, hopes and God’s grace.

inspite of being a "control freak", i have to learn and relearn the lesson of totally trusting God with everything: lovelife, studies, decisions,the whole and totality of me.

this is not the end of it. i will do my best, and wait on the Lord.He will renew my strength which was crushed and take away my weariness, and He give me wings like the eagles’ and i will run the race of my life through His strength. in Him I was given life, and in Him i will live it.